Showing posts with label daily meditations. Show all posts
Showing posts with label daily meditations. Show all posts

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Self-Care is Not My Biggest Strength

Despite my lack of entries, I'm fully aware it's February. 

January didn't finish with quite the BANG that I had hoped for, but for someone who lives with her phone attached to her person, I think I did pretty well. It definitely made its way out of hiding a more than it should have, and I gave it to my boss' demands for its use during work hours, but generally speaking ... it was a pretty un-telephoned month. Just ask the dozen or so people that I owe texts to still. 

February, tho, I am really liking. This is the first month of two Challenges, and on January 31st, I changed what one of the Challenges was going to be so I felt a little thrown into the month. 

For February I'm
1. EATING BREAKFAST AND LUNCH EVERYDAY
2. TAKING 15 MINUTES FOR "MEDITATION" DAILY

I can absolutely say that I'm rocking the breakfast thing. I've also eaten my lunch each day, however it's sometimes a little later in the day than it's meant to be - does 3pm still count as "lunch" if it's only the 2nd time you've eaten? I'm struggling a little more with the meditations, to be honest. 

BREAKFAST
Well, for starters, I was delivered a stock-pile of Starbucks ready made breakfast sandwiches which made breakfast much easier for the first week. I didn't have to put any work in, I ate one each morning with my coffee. Now I'm going to have to work a little harder at it, so we'll see how I keep up. 

What I've noticed most about eating breakfast -- I'm starving most of the rest of the day. Yesterday I was already on my 1st snack by 10:00am. I get that eating breakfast is like "throwing a twig on fire instead of on a log." That makes sense, but for years my problem with breakfast has been that I'm just never hungry in the morning. Add to it that I drink coffee - appetite suppressant. Add to it more that I take a medication each morning that has "appetite suppressant" as a side-effect. But once in the hustle of the day, I'd often not eat anything before 6 or 7 at night. My body has been unhappy, my energy was at 0. 

So now, hungry. Body is burning food. I'm eating. And because I'm planning out most of it by taking lunch, I'm eating good stuff I like. 

This will probably be easy to keep up.  



LUNCH
So my problems with lunch have been:
1. Not hungry,
2. Too busy, 
3. Don't remember to pack it, 
4. Don't have extras at work, 
5. Don't take the time to go get food while at work. 

Bottom line, I eat lunch even less often than I eat breakfast, which is NEVER. 

For the last 6 days, I have had a mid-day meal. I have taken my lunch to work 3 of the 4 days, I ate lunch each day at home over the weekend, I bought lunch yesterday when all I brought with me from home was yogurt and lunch meat. 

What I need to do this weekend, is fill my extra fridge in the garage with lunch foods so I can fill my lunch bag in the morning without too much time/energy/creativity. 


MEDITATION
This is where I suck ass. <-- That's an actual literary phrase. Be impressed. 

I started February trying to do 30 minutes a day. But that wasn't happening. Ever. 

I was really trying to tell myself that the drive to work for 20 minutes in the morning and/or afternoon was good alone time. And that the 20 would be good enough. 

But the idea is pure alone time. Nothing I have to do with my body or mind as a distraction. Just think, write, be at peace, practice daily meditation scripts, etc. And that isn't something I'm doing well. The best I've got is 20 minutes in the car to think about things that I think I should be thinking about. 

So, I have a renewed focus on this. I need to spend the time - starting with 15 minutes and trying to work my way to 30. The "meditations" can be anything that gives me mental focus: exercise, writing, thinking, scripts, music. But the point is to be alone, be in quiet surrounding, and be actively thinking. 




Now the question is: Can I make my self-care enough of a priority to follow thru with this? 

Saturday, January 26, 2013

It's Always 'What's Next?' for This Chick

All month I have been thinking about next month. All month I have been grappling with what kind of Challenge I need next. I've had all these ideas floating around my head all month trying to decide "what I need" to challenge myself with. I want to do something to kick my ass back into gear, which leans me towards doing a food or exercise focused activity. But I have had a tumultuous last 5 months and could really use some mental ass-kicking from a challenge. 

Every time I think I've found a great work out or food challenge idea, I think "but I also want to do something with my mind." And every time I think of a good mental stretch challenge, I think "but I think I should really do a food/exercise one." Then I started thinking back to last year and towards the end of the year, I was feeling like this often too. 

So ... 

Since it's year TWO of this 30 Day Challenge thing, I've decided from February forward, my 2013 Challenges will be TWO-fold. Each month I will have a Challenge about my diet and/or exercise routines, AND I will have another Challenge that works my mind/spirit/funny bone, etc. 

Of course, this is coming from someone who is into pushing herself given these Challenges even existing, but ... I am really excited about this. In the most geeked-out-nerdy way conceivable. As soon as it crossed my mind to have 2 Challenges each month in year #2, it just clicked. I may be really mad at myself next year when, if I do this again, I will feel pressure to do three each month and so on ...

So today I took to my friendly Facebook Friends and asked for ideas about Challenges. I was already feeling like I needed some fresh thoughts on them, but now I was in need of twice as many for the year. People had some really awesome ideas. And some crack ideas, but what're ya gonna do about that?? 

Challenge ideas that I'm now throwing around, researching, considering ...
                     BODY-FOCUSED                                          EVERYTHING ELSE
                     Run 40 Miles total in the month                    Daily Meditation
                     No eating out                                                     Different dinner every night
                     No processed foods                                           Only required spending
                     Only homemade sweets/baked goods           No TV
                     Juicing                                                                Work on my novel every day
                     P90X Lite                                                           Create a garden with my kids
                     New Cardio Daily                                             Do an outdoor activity every day

As always, I'm listening to other suggestions, so keep sending them my way. In the meantime, I gotta figure out what my plan is for February sow that I've realized it's only 6 days away.